A Life of Esti Tanaem

Kalau uda gede aku mau jadi Eksmud Mau jadi bos! Hari-hari ngomong campur bahasa Inggris Tiap Jumat pulang kantor nongkrong bareng sesama Eksmud ngomong proyek besar biar keliatan sukses Suara digede-gedein biar kedengaran cewek dimeja sebelah Kalau weekend sarapan di café sambil sibuk laptopan Pesan kopi secangkir harga 40ribuan minumnya pelan-pelan biar tahan sampai siang demi wifi gratis Kalau tanggal tua pagi siang malam makannya mie instan Kalau mau nelpon bisanya cuma missed call Jadi orang gede menyenangkan tapi susah dijalanin Think again. In fact, I am rarely watching television because I don’t like it that much. But when I took a rest in a motel in Jogja, there was a television right in front of me so I watched it and there was a commercial from a cellular operator that really attracted my attention. WOW! Those words on that television commercial represent what I feel lately. Lol. I was always have a though that children are so cute, innocent...

Hari Minggu tanggal 07, kami berpetualang ke Borobudur. Dulu waktu SMA sudah pernah tapi ingin pergi lagi dan sekalian menemani Vini yang baru pertama mengunjungi candi megah nan mengagumkan itu. Kami berangkat pukul 06.00, sarapan, lalu naik Trans Jogja. Untuk pergi ke Borobudur menggunakan bis melalui terminal Jombor. Dari Malioboro ke Jombor tidak terlalu jauh tapi karena ada pengalihan jalan maka kami berganti-ganti jalur Trans Jogja sehingga untuk sampai ke Jombor membutuhkan waktu sekitar 1,5 jam. Padahal seharusnya 30 menit sudah sampai. Tapi tidak apa-apa, hitung-hitung keliling Jogja dengan tariff Rp. 3000 saja. Perjalanan dari Jombor ke Borobudur sekitar 1,5 jam dengan tariff bis Rp. 15.000. Bis ini mirip dengan bis jalur Soe-Kupang hehe. Setibanya diterminal (yang saya lupa namanya) lalu naik becak motor. Waktu akan turun dari bis, para tukang andong dan tukang becak sudah berebut penumpang. Akhirnya saya memilih untuk naik becak motornya seorang bapak berumur sekitar...

Setelah mengalami pergolakan batin akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk pergi ke Jogja dan mengikuti suatu tes yang dianjurkan oleh orang tua saya. Saya mengurus berkas-berkas secara kilat , H-5 dari deadline, mengirimnya, sampai tepat waktu, disms karena ternyata ada satu berkas yang kurang, saya kirim lagi dan akhirnya dinyatakan lolos administrasi. Rencana awal apabila saya berangkat sendiri maka saya memilih naik travel saja tapi karena ditemani Vini, adik saya, maka kita putuskan untuk naik Kereta Api karena Vini belum pernah sebelumnya sehingga biarlah ini menjadi pengalaman pertamanya. Tanggal 3 Juli 2013, saya dan Vini pergi ke stasiun dan membeli tiket kereta. Setibanya disana, tiket kereta eksekutif telah habis terjual begitu pula dengan kereta ekonomi dan kereta ekonomi AC. Yang tersisa adalah kereta bisnis. Kamipun membeli tiket kereta bisnis seharga Rp. 165.000. Mulai bulan Juli 2013 ini, tiket kereta mengalami kenaikan drastis. Teman saya pergi ke Jogja pada bulan Juni 2...

Today, my cousin sets a very touching poem written by an African child as a Display Picture on BlackBerry Messenger. This poem was nominated for the best poem of 2005. I used to pay no attention to poem since I often hard to understand it but this one really attract me. It is a simple yet meaningful poem. Here is it. Colored When I born, I Black When I grow up, I Black When I go in sun, I Black When I scared, I Black When I sick, I Black And when I die, I still Black And you White fellows, When you born, you Pink When you grow up, you White When you go in sun, you Red When you cold, you Blue When you scared, you Yellow When you sick, you Green And when you die, you Grey And you calling me Colored? The child who writes this poem want to tell us about his/her feeling about how it feels to have black skin. People with white skin usually put a negative value to them with black skin. I think, the color of skin really doesn’t matter. S...

Do you ever feel sad because you can’t have a Smartphone while your friend or family can have it easily? Do you ever feel hopeless because you are not as beautiful as some random girls in television or in a magazine? Do you ever feel envy because that girl has a very wonderful leg that looks so amazing in that mini skirt you wish you could wear it as mesmerize as she does? Do you ever feel broken heart into pieces when your friend gets that job you fighting for together, whereas you don’t pass the test? Yes, I do. I start to focus on my failures and my imperfections. Until some days ago I felt dizzy and I  couldn't  see everything clearly. The moment I imagine how would my life be if I was born disable? Then I wonder a life below. You have no finger to type a text even in your ordinary Handphone Your eyes can’t show how your face looks like You can’t move from one place to another place easily You are not able to apply the job you dream for too long be...

Experienced some rejections at the same time were one of the worst feeling ever. Maybe I am not the only one who feels such terrible thing in this world so I intend to make a writing to set the fire back in our life. Those rejections make a big influence to me as a thinker person. Yes, I think too much as usual. I even do not know what my dream job is. I (almost) lose my faith. Last year, I had a dream to work in a luxurious office with tidy clothes every day, 9 to 5 job, day off on Saturday, big salary, saving money so I can travel around this world. Work in a NGO is not my willing because I do not like uncertain work hours and I think to work there need high idealism. Since I prefer to look at the reality, I think that job didn’t suit me well. That’s why I applied to some Banks and they have rejected me for something beyond my reach. Why I said beyond my reach? Because I failed in medical test and I have checked my health and I am healthy. There is a chance to fe...

Jam 17.00 pun tiba, saudara dan kenalan serta teman mulai berdatangan. Makan-makan dimulai sambil bercerita dan bersenda gurau Saya duduk dimeja dengan teman-teman beserta our random conversation (as usual) sambil ngakak hahaha. Terima kasih Febri, Fay + Adek Ezel, Nining, Gita, Kanda, Elok, Wisnu dan Jenk Ryan yang sudah datang J Kami berada di IBC cukup lama mulai dari jam 16.00-21.00 itupun karena ada saudara yang akan pulang ke Surabaya. Untung tidak diusir haha. Saya pun berpikir, coba kalau ini di Soe pasti minuman keras mulai diedarkan hehe. It was one of best night ever in my life. Berkumpul bersama orang-orang terdekat dalam hidup sungguh menyenangkan J Setelah itu kami pun berpisah ke tempat tinggal masing-masing. Setibanya dipenginapan, langsung beristirahat sambil ngobrol, membicarakan mau dibawa kemana arah hidup saya ini setelah wisuda haha. Besoknya, Papa yang dulu kuliah di Malang (UM, dulu IKIP) sekitar tahun 1970an mengajak ke Alun-Alun untuk ...